As part of the Manga and Romance Blog Hop, today I'm going to talk about how manga, yaoi, and gay romance chipped away at my childhood innocence—in the best possible way.
It all began on a bright sunny day in the 1990s... Or maybe it was cold and cloudy. Hell if I remember. I was eleven years old, and my mom had taken my sisters and me to Blockbuster to rent movies. (Remember when people used to go to a store to rent movies? Good old VHS tapes with a sticker telling you to be kind and rewind, etc.)
Anyway, even at that age, I was completely absorbed in my own characters and stories, and my pet project at the time had a major character named Maurice. So when I came across a movie called
Maurice and read the back of the cover, I thought it was "funny" that the character named Maurice was gay and decided to make it my pick for the day. My mom took a brief look at the back of the box and said, "Gay? Why would you want to watch that?" But she let me rent it anyway. I think she didn't look too closely at the warnings on the back of the box, such as the big bold one that said, "This movie will forever corrupt your daughter
and offer her first glimpse of men's penises other than when she walked in on her dad in the shower and laughed her head off." (I'm paraphrasing.)
As it turns out, I was a little too young to truly appreciate Maurice. But even then, some of the more heated moments in the movie stuck in my mind like the glue my mother used to make for us out of rice while all my classmates got to use that fancy Elmer's stuff from the store.
A couple years pass, and my friends get me into Sailor Moon, which was airing at around six in the morning on TV every weekday. Granted, in the mangled American TV version of Sailor Moon, they turned one of the men from the first season's gay couple into a girl, but I was tech savvy enough to navigate the web (at that time known as "America Online") and discover the truth behind
Zoisite and Kunzite.
Things didn't
really click for me, however, until I was fourteen or fifteen years old. By that time, I was heavily into anime, and my friends had introduced me to Neon Genesis Evangelion (which, by the way, I do not recommend unless you like to see lots and lots of creepy and grotesque sexualized imagery of fourteen-year-old girls). But, again while surfing online, I stumbled upon some (pretty tame) "yaoi" fan art of Shinji and Kaworu. I asked myself, "All these fascinating pictures I really like are labeled 'yaoi.' What does that mean?" So I went to Yahoo.com and did a search.
Thus was the end of my innocence.
Throughout the next decade or so, I watched and read every yaoi title I could get my hands on. One of my favorites at the time was the manga series Kizuna, a love story between a former kendo prodigy and the son of a yakuza boss. I had to buy the books from an online Japanese import shop and then download text translations online, or text summaries if translations weren't available. Apparently
now you can buy the whole manga series in English, which is still on my list of "things to do when I have money."
The manga that probably had the largest influence on my own storytelling, however, was Yami no Matsuei (which you can also now buy in English under the title
Descendants of Darkness). This was primarily a fantasy story about (some very pretty) gods of death who judge the souls of the deceased and handle cases where those souls are interfering with human life.
This series also has one of the better anime adaptations, which I also recommend. What I loved most about this series was that it had a very strong plot, and the plot really was the focus, but there was also a steady stream of m/m content throughout. While I appreciate straight-up romance, I prefer stories about other types of struggles that happen to also have strong romantic themes. This is the way I approach most of my own work.
Later in college, when my interests as an illustration major began shifting toward a more detailed and "realistic" aesthetic, I began branching out from just yaoi and began exploring m/m novels, movies, and TV from the U.S. and other countries. I even revisited Maurice, both the novel and the movie, and both remain favorites for me. (The
audiobook of Maurice is also wonderful, and has the best narration I've heard on any audiobook.)
Now in my own work as an artist and writer, I like to try to find a healthy balance between the fantasy of yaoi and the (relative) realism of other m/m media, as well as the balance between plot and romance. I'm looking forward to my 7/2 release of
Art of Death, as well as the time that more of the m/m elements begin to pop up in my webcomic,
Demon of the Underground, because I'm really happy with the balance I've found in both.
Check out the other participants of the Manga and Romance Blog Hop, and be sure to leave a comment on my blog or another participating blog for a chance to win the
GRAND PRIZE! There's lots of m/m and yaoi giveaways, and you don't want to miss the opportunity to shed the last of your innocence, do you?